THIS PAIN WONT GO AWAY. It hurts when I think about the reasons why I am not happy

I just want to know if you will to do things for me as I do things for you out of love. Will you push your limits and do all you can to make the other happy? 

Is it wrong to ask to be equal? 

I hate myself for being so selfish and jealous of others. It makes my life miserable and nothing is ever good enough. I am a terrible person and I don’t know how to stop.